Dear FutureMe,
I hope you aren't smoking weed, taking random pills and drinking, or at least not wondering why you feel so bad after you do so. Promise me you won't act like a clown again, crawling on the floor, benching a fucking bed and screaming obnoxious stuff at bystanders. Doing drugs might feel really exciting and fun at the moment, but it's just another form of avoiding the real problem, just pouring gasoline into the already burning fire. You would only sabotage your healing progress, no matter how many therapy exercises you do to compensate. Also, don't forget, cutting is just another way to hell, obsessing over Vincent will get you back to the psych ward, porn is fake and degenerate, chatbots won't cure your loneliness.
Keep going,
Your sober self